In a span of one month this phrase “keep an open mind” has hit me twice. Not that I had never heard it before but because these two times it set me thinking and I believe that as I ponder about this I’ll not only believe in the importance of keeping it open but I’ll actually “open it up”.
The first time on the 7th of January, I came across it as I was chatting with a friend, as I gave her the only situations that would lead me to revealing some information to her, and as much as we had no issue with my girlfriend I had a feeling all was not well in our relationship and I thought maybe it would be wise to borrow, though it died off soon enough. Yesterday as I sat through my Psychology of Communication class the lecturer brought it up again and maybe his example is what struck me most, “I’m prepared even if now after thirty years of marriage my wife took off with another man” and as he said this I felt like he was talking to me directly.
It’s been a week of a lot; pain, anger, fear, wish, hope, prayer and maybe even questioning. All this time I can’t help but ask myself whether I should have opened it then or whether I should now work on opening it for the future. Is it a lesson I should have learnt before or is this the lesson I am going through to ensure the future rids of all I have gone through this one week?
A lot of times we get into situations in life that cause us a lot of pain and if you are like me and wouldn’t want to blame anyone or anything for what you go through then you try look hard for what might have been done wrong by you through the process. Not many may understand how much or why I am hurting this much but the fact is that it is here with me and there is nothing at all I can do to change the fact that it happened.
Doing right or doing wrong changes a lot I must agree but there are times that stuff just happens regardless of one’s good or wrong doing and this is when the mind needs to remain open. I won’t let the predicament I am going through change the person I am and if it is change maybe just try be a better person. I won’t hate on anyone I feel would have had a hand in ensuring I go through this, human beings make mistakes and all they need is a friendly talk filled with forgiveness and in future they won’t do it to anyone else. All I’ll do for this is to learn that such will always be there in life’s path, all said I will hope that even this that I writhe in at the moment will have the best for me but keep an expectation for the worst too.
My mind shall remain open as regards any issue and hope that this will fizzle off real soon, but even as it disappears I am glad that I may never hurt this much anymore.